I am who i am

Holiday

2010-11-21T23:04:00.000-08:00

Holiday....Now is the 2nd week of my holiday...^^

心血来潮

2010-05-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

在这宁静的夜晚，听着钢琴名曲，听着听着，就回想起我已经很久没写华文咯。。上了中四，我就没修读华文，原因在于我得了个B 在PMR，哈哈！

岁月不留人，一眨眼就七年啦；-）现在想想，心中有一些些遗憾没坚持修读母语。。但是呢，我还是有阅读星洲日报。。很开心我还记得笔画，词汇，写出这短短的四句“-）看来我还得加把劲，写出跟美丽的字句。。功劳得给与我的屋友，一个姐妹情深的妹妹-秀玲；-）是她激发了我华文的奥妙，谢啦秀玲。。

moments in LIFE

2010-05-05T00:28:00.000-07:00

'I gonna run, I gonna run..' I run and run until today, 5/5/2010..I am gladful that I have finished my 3rd year in law..3rd year= 3years, I have been spending my time in UKM for 3years. :-)

Here are some moments that I have after I sitted my final papers successfully:

1st picture:

We went to sing karaoke. Peoples, you know, when you go for sing k, not only you can enjoy the feeling of singing, but at the same time, you can practise your vocal. When we sing together, we get to know which key we can sing and which key we can't, haha.. Probably all of us can be a future worship team? can we? ^^we sing different type of songs lo, this is my first time i get to sing my favourite hindustan song, 'humko humise chura lo' from the firm 'Mohabbatein'- love. I think i can practise sing more hindustani song always ( can be a new development for myself).Hurray!!

2nd gambar:

I have mixed feelings when I look at this picture. I am amazed and grateful to God that He trusted me with this 2 beautiful and mighty sheeps- ah sia and ah xian. All I can tell them is 'thank you for adding colours into my life'. I prayed that both of them can continue to move forward and forward for the calling that they have in their life. I appreciate you both!! ;-)

3rd gambar:

Melaka- kota bersejarah. I feel so awesome when I get to step on the land of Melaka last Saturday. This picture was taken when we went to A Famosa. I have a sense of victory when i look at this picture. I feel like all of us are on the top,hehe..

4th picture:

Well, this is the picture we took before we went to Kampung Paya Mengkuang..this picture suppose to have 14 peoples, But due to Joyce, qing and Ah san join us late, so they are not in this picture..the word of "TEAM" came to my mind when I look at this picture..

5th picture:

hey guys and girls, we are at Kampung Paya Mengkuang, Melaka. It is also Jin Yan's kampung. I feel so happy that we can share the love of Jesus- eternal and agape love to the peoples in that kampung. Somehow, we enjoy ourself at the pig farm and enjoy eating the cucur udang as well. It's my desire that there will be young generation that rise up to make a great impact in this kampung. I prayed that jin yan's grandpa will experience his love as well.

6th picture and 7th picture:

we jump UP & HIGH! we can because HE CAN!!

We gonna fly again!! FLY & FLY!.....

My darling :-)

2010-03-13T03:07:00.000-08:00

I came to know him when I was form 4, I am so amazed when i see him and fall in love with him..now, it is the time i would introduce to u my darling..lalalala.....

When i just get to know this darling of mine, I just wonder how peoples will get with him easily. I tried and tried but I can't. The moment when I really build this relationship with my darling was when I joined the care group during my first year. Now, my relationship with my darling grow deeper and deeper. One of my dream is I will have a chance to play in 1 of the concert like Hillsongs, together with my darling.

Oops, another desire of mine is I want to get an black acoustic guitar as the picture shown above.

I want to take this opportunity as well to express my gratitude towards my best friend, Grace Chung; ah boss, brother Terence Lau; my captain, sister Gaik Ee; my buddy, sister Qing for giving me the chance to learn and improve my guitar skill from time to time. Thank you very much!!

Oh my darling.....

Reflection

2010-03-13T01:41:00.000-08:00

On this very day, I decided to update my blog after few months pass by. For friends who know me, I apologize for disappear myself so long..:-) This is my first blog in 2010.

I went through a lot in this three months, up and down anyway. I believe throughout this period, God reminded me about love and peoples.

For those who knows me, i quiet a perfectionist in some areas. I cannot stand when peoples not really giving their best in the entrusted task, I always believe that " everyone can give their best if they want to." I believe God really mold my patience. I realized i need to give grace to peoples because everyone of us has a room of improvement in different aspects of our life.

Besides, I realized the importance of looking to the need of others. I am very encouraged when I see the changes in one of my housemates when she become more giving, I am very blessed because she always boil "liong shui" for me. ^^ Her simple act of love touch the lives of other peoples. And because of that housemate, I realized that peoples are important than anything.

I really prayed that I will continue to have a humble heart to improve myself from time to time..'wink wink':-)

New Semester..:-)

2009-12-17T19:44:00.001-08:00

Soon and very soon, i will start my new semester, my 6th semester, which means i will be in my 3rd year, 2nd semester.I just want to thank God for He lead me all this while, never fails me since my 1st year until now.New semester, new beginning.Yet I still don't know what i want to do for my coming semester.I believe it's not just be excellent and strive for the best in studies, which is common dream for everyone, but I want to achieve more in other areas of my life.

spiritual- I hope to see care group grow to 15-18 people, I believe it's not just about growth alone, but all brothers and sisters will know God, love God and serve God together. 2010 will be a year of breakthrough for me as well, the time for me to seek Him more in my life. Besides, I prayed that God will give me more courage to share good news to the people around me.
social- I want to improve in my speaking skills, presenting myself well. I need to learn how to relate, care and love the people around me.
family- I looking forward for 7/2/10, the day I will back to Kuching to celebrate Chinese New Year with my family. I believe coming CNY will be very different when all my family members and relatives come together to count the goodness and blessing of God in their life. Jesus is worthy of our praise indeed!

There is so much that I want to achieve, but I need to write it down and put it in action. Above all else, let God be the center of everything! I'm excited for my new semester!

thanksgiving..

2009-11-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

today is 16/11, Monday. it's my dearest youngest sister's birthday, she is 6years old today. happy birthday, ying ying..Though I can't be with her right now in Kuching, but i promised that I will celebrate her birthday with her when I back to Kuching next year for Chinese New Year.

1 semester has passed. Time flies so fast until I no longer in my 1st year now, but I'm a 3rd yr senior for many juniors. I still have 3 semester in ukm. I need to utilise my 3 semester fully to do something that can bless the people around me. What should I do then? :-)

Recently, God reminded me about thanksgiving and worshipful heart towards Him. When we praise and worship God, do we really bring the offering that please him the most to Him? He is the most famous superstar among all the superstar. He deserves all the praise and worship. Do we really praise and worship God? He did it once for all on the cross, do we really give thanks to Him?

you feel sad?

2009-10-17T02:13:00.000-07:00

Everyday, life of human beings is full of up and down. Sometimes we happy, sometimes we feel very down. Sometimes you just want to find someone to pour out everything but you cannot because it's not everything we can share to people. I found out this song recently, Allah Peduli by Agnes Monica. If nobody, God cares..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-x_0ChywET8

ALLAH PEDULI

Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti
Mengapakah harus terjadi
Di dalam kehidupan ini
Suatu perkara yang ku simpan dalam hati
Tiada satupun kan terjadi tanpa Allah perduli

Allah mengerti
Allah peduli
Segala persoalan yg kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah di biarkanya ku bergumul sendiri
Sbab Allah mengerti

Allah mengerti
Allah peduli
Segala persoalan yg kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah di biarkanya ku bergumul sendiri
Sbab Allah Yesus ku mengerti

WE ARE IN CHRIST!!! (part 1)

2009-10-16T03:18:00.000-07:00

1. In Jesus, I have a true life ( John 1:4)
2. In Jesus, I have eternal life ( John 3:15-16)
3. In Jesus, I receive the answer to prayer ( John 15:7)
4. In Jesus, I can live and move ( Acts 17:28)
5. In Jesus, I am justified ( Romans 3:24)
6. Through Jesus, I have peace with God ( Romans 5:1)
7. Through Jesus, I receive love from the Lord ( Romans 5:8)
8. Through Jesus, I receive God's abundant provision of grace ( Rom 5:17)
9. With Jesus, I live a new life ( Romans 6:4)
10. In Christ Jesus, I count myself dead to sin ( Romans 6:11)
11. In Jesus, I am alive in God ( Romans 6:11)
12. Through Christ, I will bear fruit to God ( Romans 7:4)
13. In Jesus, there is no condemnation for me (Romans 8:1)
14. Through Jesus, I am delivered from the law of sin and death (Rom 8:2)
15. Through Jesus, I am living in the law of the Spirit of life (Rom 8:2)
16. In Jesus, I am God's child (Rom 8:16)
17. Through Jesus, I am an heir of God (Rom 8:17)
18. I am a co-heir of God with Christ (Rom 8:17)
19. With Jesus, God graciously gives me all things (Romans 8:32)
20. Through Jesus, I am more than a conqueror (Rom 8:37)

AMAZED...

2009-09-27T22:04:00.000-07:00

I'm amazed by how God moves in my family. My family, persecutor of Jesus Christ before, now almost all of them came to the saving grace of Christ. I'm proud to say I'm the first one in my family made that bold decision in my life to accept Him. A lots of my family relatives say I'm a betrayer, because I become that very 1st person that turn my faith from Taoism to Christianity in my family. From generation to generation, my family never fails in keeping their religion and practice. When i came to know Him 5years ago, my family relatives response was "how dare you believe in something that different from us? Christianity is from the west you know!!!" I just keep silent at that time.

I truly thank God for how He changed me, from the purposeless person to someone with great dream, from someone that very rude in my word to someone that very polite, from someone full with hatred to someone that know how to love, from someone that feeling insignificant all the time to someone that know how precious am I in Him..He changed me slowly by slowly. My family started to see the changes in me. After a year plus I came to know Him, I remember few days before Christmas, I told God that I want to see my family came to accept Him. On that Christmas morning itself, my mum ask me, " dear, can i follow you to church?" My immediate response was " sure, sure!!" My heart rejoice at that moment. True enough, my mum was very touched by the sharing and the song 'We are the reason', she made the decision to accept Jesus in her life. Hallelujah, God answered my prayer!!:-)

My dad, a very strong and hard man. I hardly communicate with him. Everything He decide on his own without asking my opinion. i tried to share with him but he always tell me "I believe in what you say but i think it's not the time yet." Although i did n't see the result immediately, i always believe," once saved, the whole household will be saved!' God always works wonderfully in his timing, last year before Christmas, my dad came to know Christ. Wow, God.............!!!

This year is a year of miracles!!that's a encouraging prophecy from a very dearest sister of mine. I really hold on to that word and keep praying for my family..God is always faithful and never fails in His promise. One day, i called my family back in Kuching and my mum shared with me that four aunties of mine, whom are all my father's sisters came to accept Jesus!!i cant believe at that time coz all that four aunties are the same aunties that persecute Jesus 5 years ago. All of them came to know Him because they really experience the peace from God. People, this is the year of breakthrough and miracles!!

I'm truly amazed..deeply amazed by how God moves in my family..without Him, i cant be somebody now i believe..it's truly by his love, grace and mercy..onceagain, i'm amazed..

wow, Hindustan movie

2009-09-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihXzIuO

Mohabbatein, one of my favorite movie, i remember i watch it 7 times, i cry 7 times, coz it is very touched..the love story..the couples face lots of challenges, yet they hold on to each other til the end..Shahrukh Khan, one of my favorite actor though he is quiet old now yet attractive.:-) all the songs very nice..Hindustan song..Humko Humise Chura Lo....lalalaala.......watch the movie ppl.......

my family

2009-09-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

At this moment, i thought of my family in Kuching, i deeply missing them now..i miss my papa, my mummy, ah ming, ah mei, steve, abby, ah ann, ah nick, ah ying, all of them..i miss my mum cook, i miss the moment i playing with ah nick& ah ying..i miss the moment i chatting with my dad..moment of ah ming,ah mei, steve sharing and pouring their heart to me..moment of abby & ah ann sing song to me..all my siblings can sing very well, me also not bad la in singing, haha..

But i know there is time for everything, time to stay in selangor and time to back to hometown..Soon and very soon, i will flight back to Kuching..Kuching, wait for me!!!!

Obedience

2009-09-18T03:10:00.000-07:00

A way of life

Heroes do
what God asks them to.
They act in accordance
with what he demands.
It stands to reason.
For heroes, obedience
has no off-season.
It's a way of life.
Heroes stand out
by always being about
their Father's business.
As a prophet once said
to a conniving old king
" What sings most beautifully
is not bleating lambs
about to be sacrificed,
but a life that is quick to obey."

Healing, God....

2009-09-15T09:11:00.001-07:00

God,
as you know, i need to read 2 cases to complete my assignment..yet, the pain come again..oh God, i need your healing & strength..heal me oh God..i really need to complete my assignment..thank you God..i believe you're my healer..:-)

my shepherd, my sheep..:-)

2009-09-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

hey people, i proudly present to u my shepherd, MISS LEE LIH QING and my sheep, MISS ESTHER TING JIN SIA..do u know what is shepherd and what is sheep? shepherd is the one that lead us and sheep is the one we lead them, make sense?:-)well, the one in left picture is my sheep and the one in right picture is my shepherd..

well, i know ah sia when i was in 1st year, i know her presence but don't really talk with each other, just smile every time we terserempak..hehe..but we start to get close with each other when i was in 2nd yr..i believe God put her in my life to teach me a lot of thing..to know Him deeper, to improve myself from time to time, to become a shepherd that carry the character of Jesus Christ..fiy, she can dance very well oh, very 'geng' one, don't play play, haha..we are not only shepherd and sheep but we also peers, hehe..and both of us from sawarak..orang sarawak, hehe..thank you for your teachable and serving spirit oh..be bold and courageous oh & dream big for Jesus!!

i know ah qing since i was in 1st yr..walao eh, this girl ah, when 1st time met her, she really friendly like she know u for years already..ORANG PERLIS memang friendly ni..haha..thanks for your joyful and friendly spirit Qing! if my sheep can dance, my shepherd can sing oh..she can sing very well..i always be her guitarist and she be my pw leader..thanks for your love for Jesus and His people..i remember she was in her 3rd yr when i know her and she can manage her time well in her studies and ministry coz she do it all out of her compassion for God's people..there is an area that she need to improve, that is need to has good memory and not forgetful sometimes..:-) she always encourage me, 'sheep, let's always sing of His praises becoz He is our God!' thanks so much...

people, i believe that every people exist in our life is very precious and significant to God..we might have some quarrel or disagreement but we need to talk it out and open to each other..CHERISH&APPRECIATE them...:-)

I called u to be a sponge..

2009-09-11T08:38:00.001-07:00

hey, people..i'm back, recently quiet busy, so it seem like i very far from all of you..:-) hehe.. we just have our student revival night on Monday night, it is so great!!
personally, i very encouraged by what brother Peter has shared with us that night, message entitled ' The Dream Releaser' from Genesis 37:1-11. Here are some of the point..

a)God desires to bring us higher & further than where we are now.
b)Dreams are made possible by God
c) God empowers us through the power of the Holy Spirit
d)Dreams fulfills our destiny in God
e) Journey with God towards His dreams for your life..

so, my friends, do you have dream that you want to fulfill in your life? without dream, people perish..i always dream that i want to become a great guitarist that can play during a big concert for JESUS 1 day!! and i believe God is preparing me for that stage now..hehe..

and do u know what God speak to me that night? He told me, ' I have called u to be a sponge..' a sponge that can be used by God to clean the dirty dishes, to cleanse the life of others..wow!! i just can wow at that time..but from this moment onwards, i want to really take some steps to continue bless the life of others, become a shepherd of many sheep.. Bee Ling, be ready!! and i know that He will be the greatest SHEPHERD of all to guide me!! Hallelujah!

He loves me..

2009-09-01T01:54:00.000-07:00

wow...back from the unit camp, still can feel the pain on my muscles..regardless of my muscles pain, God reassured me once again, 'Bee Ling, I love you and I will always with you..' on 1st day of the trip, we have to go through a big thrill challenge in sky trex.. and I have height phobia..at the moment want to go through flying fox, my tears almost drop coz i very scared..just at the right timing, the voice came to me, 'I am with You, don't be afraid' Yup, He is with me..so, i just shout 'God!!!!!' every time i went through the flying fox..after finish the challenges, i can't believe that i made it!!thank you God..
through this experience, i am convinced that 'call on the name of the Lord and you will be saved!!' He is always there, depends on us want to run to Him or not???:-)

blogss..........

2009-08-24T12:49:00.000-07:00

it's have been my hobby to express myself through writing..for those who know me, i'm really a word person..haha..reading my closest one's blog, so i also think of want to write blog..my new desire&motivation??probably..hehe..

22 August..

2009-08-23T21:58:00.000-07:00

indeed, 22/8 is the best date to remember..5 years ago, on this particular date, something happen that it's has change my life..that day is the turning point, a new beginning in my life when i come to know Him, my personal Saviour..my best friend that called Jesus!!Jesus is the bestest friend that i ever have in my life..i will never forget that day..the decision that i made..so wonderful..:-)